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for yall who dont know i am not going to going back to grimsley next year :(
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[02 Jun 2005|11:16pm] |
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IM SO FUCKING SICK OF SHIT!!!!!!!! i fucking leave here on sunday for don lee and i cant wait to get out of this stupid ass town!!!!!!!! ahh im just so close to being in the one place that i am happy, always happpy, cuse everything else in my life that makes me happy in just the least little bit ends up goin away, don lee is always there and is always the same, the one place where i am undonditonaly happy, no strings attached. im so tired of stuff here, im tired of wasted time and the way i feel about myself and being so excited about stupid things and then those things just geting stomped on over and over agin, ahhhh this is depressing and oh joy i have to wake up early to shop for bathing suits and as we know thats such a boost for my mood, mmm yay to feel fat as shit, dont ya love it, well at least its for don lee....
Where we’re living in this town
The sun is coming up and it’s going down
But it’s all just the same at the end of the day
And we cheat and we lie
Nobody says it’s wrong So we don’t ask why
Cause it’s all just the same at the end of the day We’re throwing it all away
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[17 May 2005|09:13pm] |
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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[28 Mar 2005|01:56am] |
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i havent updated in forever and i kept meaning to but i was always too lasy till now when it two in the morning and ive run out of things to do....
i feel like im just sitting here watching life go by. there is absolutly nothin happing in my life to talk about on this thing, thats probly another reson why i havent updated. i have nothing intersting or good to say, abloslutly nothin....which, in case youre not familer with the feeling,suck alot....
my space being a bitch....
im boredi think im gonna gosleep...
night.
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[06 Feb 2005|04:41pm] |
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so i have begun to miss grimsley alot lately, with all the shit at school and stuff, i really miss everyone. i looked through my yearbook last night, i was reading all the things that people worte to me, it made me miss so many people so much, i started to cry, i didnt think i would miss grimsley this much but i do...lacrosse is gonna start soon for grimsley and i already miss that like crazy, i dont know what its gonna be like when it acctually starts, but i know its gonna be hard not being able to play. i dunno, i have to go do homework.
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[05 Feb 2005|05:29pm] |
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ok so now its venting time. i seriously think i am goin insane. this week has been complete hell. EVERYTHING seemed to go wrong. i mean yeah a few good things did happen but its so hard to think about them when all this shit is goin on. dr. bob is stressing me out beond belif and i can do absolutly nothin about it because hes so full of shit. i cant stand it anymore. and then everyone seemed to have a stick up their ass this week(including me probly). some people at school just piss me off like crazy, ic ant stand them, they can be so damn cinical and crtize everything about everyone and they think that thier the shit when really thier just full of it. i seriously feel sorry for them when they have to get out in the real world and get screwed because at some point they might relize that they cant just be an ass to everyone they come in contact whith and mabey just mabey (i know this is a revalotionary concept)they might have to accept people as they are not what they think they should be like. EVERYTHING has been pissing me off lately and stressing me out, last night i got so mad when i was driving i threw my phone and it broke in to which made me more made cuse hell i had just broke my phone which added on to the shittyness of the situation and then later i went to gennys to try to destress and i broke her phone!!! this was in a span of what an hour, i think thats a record. ahhhh and so much other shit is goin on but i think i have already vented enough and i need sleep a tad so im gonna go. i have been saying every night "tomorrow is another day" but you know it hasnt really helped cuse every shitty thing has kinda spilled over so HOPEFULLY this will not be the case tomrow ahhh, breathe 1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8..9..10, i think that prosses is crap cuse it dosnt help at all except for maing me shut up for 10 seconds, ok im really gonna go now
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| im updating yay, its been a while... |
[20 Jan 2005|09:14pm] |
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so was today was pretty decent, i mean this week has been kinda a drag because i missed arise so much but hey what can ya do. tonight i had campiners which was fabuolous, i love my campainer girls, they are sooo very sweet and bueatyfull(dont you just love the spelling on that) and they always make me feel better. i also ate to much there... and the the oc tonight!!!!!!!!!!!! that was grand, i love the oc so much, haha. alan is comming tomorow i think which makes me very happy, yay, ummmmm, i dont really think there is anything else goin on, hmmm, i shall have to ponder.....
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| fantabulous weekend! |
[09 Jan 2005|11:21pm] |
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so today was good, did the whole sunday morning thing like always wich is always good. then this afternoon i got to go out to lunch at hams w/ my darling petuina!!!! yippe!!! i loved seeing allson(that petuina for all yall who dont know) it was so fun and made me miss grimsley and not being able to see her and everybody else everyday, and i also think we gained about 100 pounds...or i did cuse petuina just dosnt gain weight, haha, then we went to indigo beads and bought purdy beads and i made a pretty neacklace today, it shall have its first outing tomrrow i know so exciting.
this weekend was fabulous, alan came to stay friday which made me extremly happy and then saterday we went to the team meeting which made me even happier if it is possible which is pretty hard. friday night when i was renting movies w/ alan i saw char and bibbe and that made me really happy, and you could tell this by the way i jumped in the air, yelped, and gave huge hugs (i think alan may have been a lil scared) haha. saterday afternoon i hung out w/ alan till he left and then i went to babysit my principls grandkids with lou-ann witch was great fun also(minus the fact that one of the lil girls was trying to eat my pant leg)
so all in all in was a spectaculor weekend!!! now back to school, the only bad thing about thins weekend...i got no school stuff done...opps
and PS, disregard the previous update me goin crazy due to sress and pms...its all better now
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[05 Jan 2005|09:09pm] |
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i drive my self insane so much. im just so scared of things that it screws me over and i dont know what to do. very frustrating, and i donnt know what to do about it, nick says its my self confidence which i guess could be alot of it, but how do i fix that? im just scared of loseing the few things that make me really happy and i dont know if thats me just being parinoed or what but it worrys me, mabey more than i should let it, but still, i dunno, this was a weird update and i think pretty repeditive....
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[05 Jan 2005|04:50pm] |
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[14 Dec 2004|05:51pm] |
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LOU ANN!!!!
you said you never saw you name on her so here ya goooo! now i need a comment woman!
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[12 Dec 2004|10:01pm] |
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ok so they past few weekd have been so incredibly great that i just havent gotten any free time to update, yall all know thats a lie(the part about me being to busy cuse the great times right now is def not a lie, tehehe)
but you know it dosnt really matter cuse its not like anyone acctulay read this, you can tell by the amount of comments i have on my entrys...i know sadness, i feel so very unloved but thats ok
I AM SO AMASINGLY HAPPY FOR THE FIRST TIME IN SOO LONG!
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[23 Nov 2004|10:23pm] |
Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you
Suppose I said
You're my saving grace
Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
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[07 Nov 2004|07:31pm] |
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ok so i havent updated in forever, i havent had any time, so now im just saying boo that. lots of stuff has happend in the past few weeks, none of which i really feel like going into on my livejournal. actually i dont really feel like updating at all so i guess im gonna stop.
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[16 Oct 2004|11:36pm] |
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im getting very frustrated right now, i wanna make a cool background for this stupid journal and i have a pic and everything but i cant do it, ahhhh, help pleaseee
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